Hi I'm back again. And I'm in a little bit of a problem.

I'm finding it extremely difficult to control my food intake and as a result I feel like I'm piling on the pounds wtf

I don't know why it's gotten so much more difficult this time than before. Is it because I've gotten older? And I have lesser self-control and less determination than when I was younger?

Previously I had no problem saying no to fattening food, or just food in general. And I remember finding it very easy to just say no when I'd had enough, or just saying no to that particular food because I knew that it was unhealthy.

This time round though I keep giving in to temptation, keep having this 'eat now, diet later' attitude that is clearly plummeting me into this weight-gaining abyss!!! HOW!!!

I've got to make up my mind man omg... I'm not young anymore!!! I WANNA LOOK PRETTY LAH!!!

So from today onwards I'm gonna only eat ONE MEAL for the entire day!!! I don't care if I starve, I don't care if it's a celebration a weekend a party or a whatever, I NEED TO CONTROL!!!

I need to get back into my groove! NOW NOW NOW

Please wish me luck omg................

Knock knock...Hello. Well, this is kind of awkward... You remember in the last post where I mentioned that I will be back in April for a compulsory post... Yeah...

It's May now.

In 2019. WTF

I'm sorry! This is getting extremely embarrassing. Number one, I keep promising to blog but I never do, no matter how hopeful and optimistic I sound in my last post, and number two, since basically nobody knows this blog exists except me, I'm essentially just apologising to myself for not blogging wtf

ANYWAY. Enough talk about how irresponsible I am about blogging (I said I was sorry!!!), let's get on with what kind of updates I have since my last post. Yeah, TWO YEARS worth wtf

So um... I have a new boyfriend wtf. I guess that's worth mentioning. And uh, I have new job which is I guess no longer new since I've been with them for 2 years plus now wtf but my bf is new I swear! I have only been with him for... I guess 10 months. Is that new?

And so uh, I have officially gained 3kg. And I say officially because my weight was always fluctuating 2-3kg up and down for the past two years ie I've always been ballooning between 61-63kg but now it seems like 64kg is the minimum weight that I will be at, the highest being 66kg WTF

Tell me for real guys, will my weight ever go down to sub-60? Yes? Anyone...?

I feel like the only time I ever feel the urge to properly blog, or should I say, sit down to actually write a blog, is when I have lost weight or when I desperately need some motivation TO lose weight. I guess from the previous paragraph we know which it is this time...

SO! I've been trying my VERY EXTREME best to not have any sweetened drinks because unfortunately ever since I got attached to my bf, I've gotten accustomed to having bubble tea, juices, coffee (tho unsweetened but still fattening), etc etc when previously I (thought I) had already gotten rid of this nasty habit ever since I returned slimmer from Korea!

So far I have not seen any success but I guess it's because I've only started one week ago... BUT IT'S OK! I'm optimistic!!! I could lose 15kg before I can do it again now!!!

HOLD ME TO MY WORDS, BLOG!

Okay, I'm sure you can tell that I've suddenly lost the muse to blog so I'm gonna end this here but!!!

WHEN I COME BACK I WILL BE BACK TO 62KG I SWEAR!!! THE LASTEST BY 20 MAY!!!

WATCH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!