Let you all guess. Why am I suddenly back here at this blog?
a) I'm getting married
b) I broke up
c) I won toto RM1,000,000
d) I gained weight
Any guesses? No? Really? REALLY!?!?!
Fine.
The answer is...I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay la no I'm not. In fact, I'm as far from getting married as I can possibly be because...
I've gained weight.
Again.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Is this cycle never going to end? And I tell you things have gotten even worse than before.
Remember how I said in my last blog post (as if ANYONE would remember something from a blog post you wrote N years ago) that I used to hover around 62-63kg, and then things got worse and I found it hard to even get to sub-65kg?
Well guess what. NOW I CANNOT EVEN SEEM TO GET TO SUB-66kg WTF
Oh right.
Since the last blog post, a major Earth-shifting change happened: Covid-19. No one expected it. It has been a year since and now everyone's just sitting thinking how we all took LIVING NORMALLY for granted before all this happened.
Remember how we were allowed to go out and breathe without having to cover our ugly face with a mask?
Remember how we used to have no qualms about sandwiching ourselves between crowds of humans during a concert/mega sale/airport queue?
DO WE EVEN REMEMBER THE AIRPORT?!
Sigh. Well, I digress. Let me return from talking about the disaster that is our world to the disaster that is my life.
Wait, what made me talk about Covid-19 again? Oh yes. With Covid-19 came MCO, the movement that was instated to reduce our movement to control the spread of the virus, but which has since helped reduce MY overall body movement to practically zero.
The first few months was still okay. Even though I basically only stood and walked whenever I needed to reach for food (I stay in a <1200sqft apartment), I still managed to lose weight by simply just preparing my own healthier meals.
From the sixth month onwards though, woh ho ho, it was like my entire metabolism decided to shut down due to disuse, let me tell you.
I think it's because I've been working from home, and so while everyone else has somewhat gone back to their usual work routine, I've still been stuck in MCO state.
UNTIL TODAY.
I've tried and tried to lose weight, but it seems like I'm just piling on the kgs like there is no tomorrow.
It's like my body just does not want to burn any fat!!!
I've gone from eating less than 800 calories per day for WEEKS, and still I only lost a measly 1.5kg, WHICH I HAVE NOW GAINED BACK.
WTH.
I've been going on walks everyday for at least 45 minutes, I've been skipping rope for at least 20 minutes 4 times a week, NOTHING.
Still gaining, gaining, and only maintaining my weight when I STARVE myself.
Help.
TT__TT
I'm starting to think that there may be some sort of a health issue that's causing this but I haven't been feeling unwell. Just generally...inactive.
Sigh.
But you know what, enough of the complaining. (Well, I needed to provide a backstory, didn't I?)
I'm going to continue working hard. I'm NOT GIVING UP.
I've lost 15kgs before and I'm going to do it again.
CONSISTENCY! PATIENCE! BELIEF!
I've been reading The Secret and I'm going to apply the law of attraction to my life.
NO MORE NEGEATIVE FEELINGS.
JUST FOCUS ON YOUR IDEAL BODY.
BELIEVE THAT YOU ALREADY OWN THAT BODY.
BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU HAVE THAT BODY.
THINK OF IT EVERY SINGLE SECOND AND DON'T LET IT SLIP YOUR MIND.
FEEL THE EMOTIONS OF SEEING YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR FLAUNTING THAT BODY.
KEEP EATING HEALTHY AND STAYING ACTIVE.
BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVE ALREADY INCORPORATED THAT INTO YOUR LIFESTYLE.
ENJOY THE LIFE YOU HAVE NOW.
The universe is working to bring those things to me.
And I am ready to receive it.
OUHMMMMMMM.
Okay that's all for my update.
BYE.